I am feeling pretty lonely these days... found out that one of the Ex Friends subbed in Josh's class today. That just BITES. I honestly don't think I'd be able to be there as a volunteer if she subbed on a day I was there. I think I would have to walk out. I hate that. I hate that they have reduced me to a hermit, who avoids them at all costs. I hate that I look like a flake and an idiot to 99% of the people here, because I've quit doing so many things in order to NOT see them or be forced to pretend that we "just drifted apart". I hate that living in the same town as them means that I can only move on in my head, because every time I go anywhere that they are, I am brought face to face with how much they have hurt me, and all my wounds start bleeding again. I hate every corner they have me boxed into. I can't wait to leave this town. I recently saw a saying... "being lonely is when you slowly fade away, and no one notices." That's pretty much how I feel about living here these days. I've pretty much faded out of just about everything I ever did here, and I don't think many people have noticed. Thank GOD for Coffee, and Christine... I don't know what I would have done without them.
In other less depressing news...
The KIT at Tally is now available!! Here are a few things I've made with the kit!!
AND the prompt for GutterGirlz is up!! We also announced our newest guest designer!
The Olympics are over at Tally now too... and here are the last two pages I made for that! (not with the kit) First one, was to post a page using a sketch, and to use cotton balls and sewing on our page. No bright colors, and use one word (from a list of words) as our title, with at least 75 words worth of journaling.
Second one, to use shoes and dirt on a layout (it was a payback for a challenge I gave the other team with those things...) to use Fire, and cupcake liners!! (the liners are the flowers, and I burnt the edges)
Played with some self portraits... and a new haircut... My hair is so dark you can never SEE in photos...
Just 3 more days before items for the Fantasmagorique Swap should be shipped!!
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Hey girl.....I've survived this small town bs longer than u! So sorry u have to deal but remember I'm right up the street...got arms, shoulders, drinks and other comfort stuff. I'm done cocooning myself & I miss being your friend.
ReplyDeletei hope there are other people in your town - there must be! of course i hope the same for myself. this is a pretty small town and if everybody already has all the friends they need, then i'm not sure what i'll do.
ReplyDeleteSorry, Rachel. Remember your online friends - you bring a lot of joy to those friends! Nancy
ReplyDeleteI don't know what' going on, but was sad to read your post. I can't imagine anyone not wanting to be your friend. As Nancy said, you have loads of us and we LOVE YOU!
ReplyDeleteIf you need to talk to somebody that is not a part of it just email me. I'm a listener...
Hugs to you Sweet girl,
Pam
just sending you a hug and to let you know I love you to death and really do understand
ReplyDeletesounds like we have a lot in common Rachel, I am feeling very much the same way right now....I've also become a hermit of sorts...but I've got my dh and son, my scrapping, and my wonderful scrappy friends! Hugs to you!
ReplyDeleteThat's the suck part of living in a smallish town...there is always the possibility of running into someone you have a "past" with. I totally understand where you are coming from.
ReplyDeleteHowever...I love love love the stuff you made with the new kit! So freaking cool! I'm going over to GutterGirlz to see what's up.
Oh...and your new hair ROCKS. Totally. Love. IT.
Dude! Wicked Do!
ReplyDeleteCupcake lines and fire?? What were you thinking?
Hey....SMOTHER them with kindess!! It'll drive them bonkers!;)
WHEN I move up there to be your neighbor, I'll drive to that small town, find those women, and KICK. THEIR. ASSES.
ReplyDeleteAnd we all live happily ever after. The end.
Sorry you are dealing with small town crap! LOVE your new self portraits! Love the new doo too!!
ReplyDeleteI don't know what happened, but I can totally understand how you are feeling. I am a hermit myself. Have been there myself. I have learned that you can count your TRUE friends on one hand and even then you can be very disapointed, as I have found with the recent lack of support during my mom's fight with breast cancer. Thank God for my blogging friends! If you would like to chat, exchange stories, or have someone to vent to, I am your gal! Rlsecrist@aol.com
ReplyDeleteOn another note, I think you are awesome, love your blog, and know we would be great friends if we were in the same town. You keep your pretty chin up and remember how much you are loved by all of us! Kill em with kindness I always say!
xoxo
Rhonda...
I feel very similar to the stalker I had awhile back. I never go to the stores I used to go to. I don't think I've seen the inside of ACMoore in a year. I just don't want to run into her. Anyways, I'm really glad you had Coffee & C to see you through. You're worth your weight in Gold being a fabulous person. {{big hugs}} LOVE your new photos and you know I love your work!
ReplyDeleteWell, one good thing to come from this, you have lots more time to use your creativity! Need I add, I love the layout about me? LOL
ReplyDeleteSmall town life has some great points, but as I've realized ... you can't go or do anything without a whole bunch of gossip!
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about the ex-friend ... I have one who I THOUGHT was my friend, but really she just used me because she was lonely. And then talked bad about me. I'm moving on, and just try to avoid going where she might be. Saw that her house is up for sale ... very strange since she just added a whole 3-car garage and porch before they got married.
Love your new hairdo! Love it! You're really talented and I'm so happy that I found TallyScrapper and met wonderful people (virtually) like you!!
Well written article.
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